In the space between endings
Where the shadows settle
Demons hide in the corners,
Creeping aroung my delicate bones.
My loneliest hour,
Sadder than the skies crying out.
The inevitable fall,
The deepest inhale
Before I drown in this violent storm of tangled memories and pain.
Melancholia we meet again, my oldest friend.
JACQUELINE LENTE POETRY
I cry watercolour skies,
You can see the tracks of my tears.
I’m too dead inside.
Indigo hues deepen as daylight wanes,
And I realise,
I don’t live here anymore, inside my head.
All I can think of is,
Hope is a slow poison,
And temporary ecstasy,
is enchanting,
Against the fatal embrace of time.
– “Indigo hues, watercolour skies” – Jacqueline Ann Lente
Feature Image taken by Jacqueline Ann Lente
Is it better to feel numb?
Even just for a little while.
To turn off from the sadness, you’ll know you will have to face again and again
Or is feeling numb a sign that the sadness has become too much? and you have become used to feeling like this,
Used to all the bullshit and the trauma, that feels never-ending.
And being numb is a coping response to try and feel some peace,
even if its short lived, even if its for one moment.
One little sliver of peace amongst the chaos.
One moment of floating instead of falling into the void of darkness that is my mind.
– “Is it Better to Feel Numb?”
– Jacqueline Ann Lente
Hold me tight,
Bring me escape.
The shadows of the world fall too heavy upon my face.
I feel so out of it,
Like I don’t belong,
At all in this place.
– “Bring Me Escape” – Jacqueline Ann Lente
We are so connected,
But disconnected simultaneously.
We display a picture perfect life,
But live in despair.
Our reality a lonely one with no one really there.
We judge our moments on whether or not they are instagram worthy,
Not on the moment itself.
We’ve lost the spirit and adventure and our basic humanity over everything else.
We hide behind screens from the gift of life.
Mainly worrying about wi-fi instead of the outside.
Outside in nature, which we slowly kill.
While parading on screen,
Falsely committing to saving the world we live in.
– “21st Century” – Jacqueline Ann Lente
My dear, I know the mind can get messy as emotions are all jumbled up.
But your soul is still beautiful,
Your heart, still strong;
And your spirit still flows wildly with every passing day.
The darkness is the truth in reality,
Sometimes it’s the bittersweet knowledge that we come face to face with,
That brings us to clarity and understanding.
Although the journey can be tough and troublesome,
The universe is guiding you to the right way to live a full life and be free.
Find your peace amongst the chaos and hold on.
All the pain and struggle are worth it in the end.
– “When The Mind Gets Messy” – Jacqueline Ann Lente
Darkness consumes me.
Darkness welcomes me into its sorrowful lair. Holding me there, captive with my thoughts. Crashing together wildly and with no control.
The pain is heavy and hazy.
The weight of everything, everyone and everyword heaped upon my shoulders.
Pain shoots through my whole body, the kind of pain that touches the soul; that tries to weaken the spirit.
My journey is not easy and my mind sometimes is unforgiving.
My bones crack, my muscles ache, my head foggy from lack of sleep. My eyes tired from looking into the abyss of the night. Unable to shut off. Unable to dream a sweet sleep.
– “Insomnia – Lost Sleep” – Jacqueline Ann Lente
Life is like a flower blooming, dying and blooming again. It teaches us the idea of death and rebirth of the self and the soul. Continuously entering the cycle of beauty and pain, lessons and understanding. Changing in order to grow again. Embrace all that comes and goes. Do not dwell too long on the negative. Let it pass as it shows you clearly all that is happening before you. Invite in the positivity and let it wash over you with warmth and vitality. Let the sun shine above you and flow with the winds of energy constantly at play.
Maybe loneliness is a way in which to learn to accept being alone with ones true self, both light and dark side. It can be scary and painful to face the oppressed thoughts trapped deep inside ones mind. To confront the real reality of your thoughts and actions. To be happy with being alone is to work with ones self through the struggle and destruction to see the lesson of it all and to let go of all fear. To float away with the energy surrounding us, guiding us to a higher viewpoint of all perspective. Calming the beast inside us that wishes to crawl out screaming. Silence in truth and clarity, serenity and peace binding the soul.
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