“I’m not looking for love anymore, I am looking for myself.”
– Jacqueline Ann Lente
Tag: Personal
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Fading Away
Trying to breath but its hard.
Constantly on the verge of crying a river.
Anger, hate and love,
a whirlwind in my heart and mind.Love and pain,
Life and its games.
Courage, bravery and fear, its all the same.I feel numb.
Cause it is all gone.
No more to give if it ends badly,
Sadly I’ve let it happen one time to many,
And I can’t take another hit to my brain.Let go, I’m fading away.
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Burn
I’m wrecked but at least I look fresh.
This is the last nail in the coffin,
the pain in my chest.
Let me burn, cause I’m done.
I don’t give a fuck now,
All I feel is numb.
And I welcome it in with my open arms.Time has changed, like you wouldn’t want to believe.
Learning to accept it now but I won’t let anyone else stand over me.People have gone, caused pain and hurt me.
To long have they played with my brain.
No longer will I stand in the firing line,
I’ll be the one firing the shots.
I’ll be at peace in the fire and the flames. -
Dance With the Devil
Dance and dine with the devil.
It feels like hell already.
What could be worse,
Than this ever fearing curse of the fate of humanity.We all will burn as we do to the earth
Unleash hell, take it all in.
We don’t stand a chance against our mortal sins.In a blink of an eye,
Humanity waives us by.
As the earth destructs and falls apart,
now we feel it in our heart.
The pain, sorrow and hurt,
All ground into the dirt.Waste away as the ones before us?
Or can we make a change?
It’s up to you my friend,
to help heal the worlds pain. -
With You Tonight
So peaceful do you sleep.
I love to lay next to you,
And watch you simply breath.So beautiful you are at rest.
Lay your head next to the best.
Crazy dreams you speak of having,
cute it is to watch them unfold,
as you wrap yourself in the blankets from the cold.It is so lonely in my bed without you.
All I long for is to be in your presence,
on a peaceful, dark and starry night.
Out the window the moon shines so bright.All I want is to be is with you tonight.
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Twinkling Star
One day you are up.
One day you are down.
The next you are spinning round and round.We do not know what the future holds,
but please let the truth be known.
Live in the moment and be free.
Hold your head high and please don’t worry.Take every opportunity to better your future.
But don’t miss out on what’s in front of you within true nature.
Take a hand to hold, a heart to love.
Sing to the heavens up above.
Dream, create, inspire and share,
let go of the negative, you don’t have to care.The world is your playground,
The universe your light.
Fly free and live your dream,
like a twinkling star on a beautiful night. -
Forever Waiting.
Forever waiting,
my heart skips a beat.
Forever waiting,
for happiness and I to meet.All alone in the desert,
under the twinkling night sky.
I dream a dream and,
I wonder why?Why is this world so chaotic and cruel?
Why do we place such high fame on such fools?
We play silly games with our lives and nature.
Inventing, masking, disguising what real happiness is to paint a pretty picture.In a world gone crazy,
I am forever waiting.
Is it getting hazy?
Or am I still dreaming?All I know is that,
I’ll be forever waiting. -
Embrace your Inner Warrior.
You have to keep trying through all the pain. Push through all the bullshit and the negative and hold onto that positive light, beam positive energy from the inside out.
Be friends with your darkness and learn from its lessons. Let your battle scars show and be proud of what you have been through and what has made you who you are today.
You are strong and you hold so much power within you to be great and achieve all your dreams and beyond what you could ever imagine.
We cry, we bleed and we feel sorrow. We are warriors. We come out in top with strength and wise knowledge for the road ahead. It is our destiny to be courageous and be at peace with the world and within our inner selves. We can do anything.
Be bold, be strong. Release your inner warrior!
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Finding Peace.
My mind is constant.
Constant thinking.
How do I shut it off for a while?
Please.The world keeps turning,
while I keep burning,
trying to find all moments of peace.Is there a heaven on earth?
Is it you? Is it love?
The world it gets so dark.
We all wait for some kind of spark.
Be the light of your life.
Don’t stand back and watch life go by.
All you have to do is try.Sometimes its a constant war on my mind.
Peace is all I try to find.
But strength do I always hold,
while I watch my life events infold.Do the same and be at peace.
Take life as it comes,
and don’t waver in your stand,
for the wonders of this beautiful land. -
To Love Again.
I thought I knew what love was,
but I was wrong.
Until I met you.
And you showed me what real love is.I was blinded by a corrupt love.
When its your first fall you will believe everything that person tells you, because you’re so in love you look past all the bad and all the wrong.
But when its over, you see with full clarity,
how trapped you were in a viscious cycle of being played around.
That broke my heart into a million pieces.
And I promised myself I wouldn’t love again until I knew all truth.Then you opened up like a flower in full bloom, taking my hand and treating me like your queen.
You showed me the right way to be loved.
To love myself and be comfortable again.
To trust and believe with no fear of corruption.
And lastly to hold onto love again without pain. -
Alone Again.
I had a good run,
but now I’m alone again.I had a good run,
but now I am alone again.People have come and gone.
There is the loyal ones who have stayed,
they are always not too far away.
And always in my heart to stay.I had a good run,
but now I am alone again.All my life I go up and down.
Change.
Alone, alive, lost and found.
Social and spiritual connection,
for a time.
Then independence calls my name.I had a good run,
but now I am alone again. -
Childhood: In a Blink of an Eye.
One moment you’re five years old, you open your eyes and the next thing you know you’re ten years old. Still Blissfully unaware and innocent to the world around you.
You close your eyes and open them again and you’re suddenly sixteen. Amidst the rush of growing up, teenage struggle and teenage fun. You think you know what the world is like and how it works. You build friendships and eagerly plan for the future.
Once again you open your eyes and you are freshly eighteen, old enough to legally drink and party. Adulthood has opened its doors. You are slightly aware of the reality of the crazy world around you. Freshly out of school and planning your next move towards a big career, exploration and adventure.
Once again you close your eyes and open them. You are a few days away from turning twenty-one and becoming a fully fledged, responsible adult. You are fully aware of how cruel the world can be, but at the same time you are aware of the opportunities you can take to better yourself and enjoy life. But crazy always gets in the way. You look back and wonder where childhood went? and why did it slip away so fast? Why were you so eager to grow up? You are awakened to the fact that you were wrong at sixteen, when you thought all twenty plus year olds had their shit together.
You realize real life has just begun. The hardships, the good times and the unbelievably great times, the experiences and the life lessons, the friends that have come and gone and the loyal ones who have stayed, falling in love and heartbreak and falling in love all over again. You cherish the peaceful moments and wish the world wasn’t so crazy as you watch it get madder and madder as the years go by.
You realize your blissful innocence and ignorance you once held many years ago and you long for it, sometimes quiet painfully too. Especially when things get chaotic and seem to be falling apart. You wish to go back to that younger self of yours and tell them to shut up about growing up so fast and to just enjoy your youthful moments. Because once you reach twenty-one and realize this, there is no turning back. Only forward, navigating the sea of adulthood, while trying to stay sane.
Knowing all this, take a page out of your childhood lessons and realize if we live in the now, enjoy the moment, go with the flow, roll with the punches and come out on top, we can embrace the child-like thinking of mystery and wonder, adventure and play. Don’t let the cruelty of the world taint your life with struggle when you can embrace spontaneity, strength and the power to push through everything and anything. Our childhood has seemed to flash by us in a blink of an eye but we can still maintain that child-like nature of peace, comfort, wonder and courageous bravery to keep us going strong.
If you are reading this and you are still in the throws of childhood, don’t let it waste and slip by. Embrace every moment, be a kid as long as you can and don’t worry or bother about wanting to grow up so fast. You only get one childhood, live it up.
With adulthood, now have no fear! Conquer every day, work hard, play hard and always keep that inner child within the love of your heart and mind to embrace the world with love, mystery and adventure.
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Best Friend, Forevermore.
You are a shining light.
Your smile makes the world so bright.
You are my best friend and sister, forevermore.
What more could I ever ask for!You came into my life with a bang.
Added sparkle and fire,
Burning bright, the fire in my soul you ignite.You understand me on another level.
When you want, you can be such a rebel.
You are so strong and courageous,
You hold your head high when everything falls.
You inspire me to be brave,
To ride the wave of life with no fear,
I hold my head up high with you always near.I’ll hold your hand and never let you go.
You’ll always have me wherever you choose to go.Keep rising high and reach for the stars.
Go beyond space, way beyond mars.
Your dreams will come true,
All you have to do is trust in you.
Have peace of mind, when sometimes your path is blind.
Have strength and know,
That everything falls into place when we trust in the universe and stay true to ourselves.
Just go with the flow.Thank you for being the bestest friend.
We are together until the end,
Forevermore.
I wish you all the best,
You beautiful soul.
You can do anything, just focus on the goal.But most importantly, remember
I love you with all my heart and soul.– Dedicated to one.of my dearest and best of friends, Lakin xx
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