My mind is at war.
My heart wants peace.
One moment I am falling,
Then floating the next,
And falling again.
On repeat.
The demons creep around.
Seeping into my bones.
They have become my bestfriends
When I am alone.
Serenity is a dream far away from here.
Reality is a prison.
Constantly trying to escape,
But never fully reaching the exit gates.
– Jacqueline Ann Lente
This bridge is the hardest to cross. The river of pain flowing underneath is overtaking, all consuming.
Taken out to sea. Now it is just me and the crashing waves. I’m screaming storms and shouting thunder,
All the while adrift in the rift of oblivion.
But sometimes you have to hold your own hand and sail through the breakdowns.
As the storms break and the sea calms,
I see the stars bright reflection bouncing off the water,
I hear the sweet lullabies of the world laced into the night sky.
And I know I have to ride the waves and weather the storms to make the journey back to shore.
– Jacqueline Ann Lente
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I cry watercolour skies,
You can see the tracks of my tears.
I’m too dead inside.
Indigo hues deepen as daylight wanes,
And I realise,
I don’t live here anymore, inside my head.
All I can think of is,
Hope is a slow poison,
And temporary ecstasy,
is enchanting,
Against the fatal embrace of time.
– “Indigo hues, watercolour skies” – Jacqueline Ann Lente
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I hate it in my own head.
My own worst enemy.
Wishing I was dead.
The demons get too loud.
The cloud of illusion rolls in quick.
I can’t get myself to calm down,
And realise,
Its all in my head.
Sorrow holds its grip tight.
And I try and try with all my might,
To overcome, to push through.
But sometimes reasons are gone with the wind.
The grip is too suffocating,
And the screams of pain too loud.
I am my own enemy.
But at the same time,
I am my own saviour.
The battles are just ongoing.
The end of the war is no where in sight.
Day to day,
Night to night.
Forever in flight or fight.
– “Forever in Flight or Fight
– Jacqueline Ann Lente
All the days and nights
Fade away.
Fade into each other,
Into a haze.
All the thoughts and feelings,
All the pain.
A whirlpool of emotion,
Sucking me in.
Stuck in the void again
– “Stuck In The Void”
– Jacqueline Ann Lente
Is it better to feel numb?
Even just for a little while.
To turn off from the sadness, you’ll know you will have to face again and again
Or is feeling numb a sign that the sadness has become too much? and you have become used to feeling like this,
Used to all the bullshit and the trauma, that feels never-ending.
And being numb is a coping response to try and feel some peace,
even if its short lived, even if its for one moment.
One little sliver of peace amongst the chaos.
One moment of floating instead of falling into the void of darkness that is my mind.
– “Is it Better to Feel Numb?”
– Jacqueline Ann Lente
Hold me close my dear.
Hold me near and near.
Never let go.
Your warmth and light,
Keep me safe always.
May love be with us forevermore.
And may love and peace,
Be all the happy moments we share.
I am with you always,
Heart and soul.
Through stormy seas and sunshine,
And all the inbetween.
You have my being to the core,
You hold my heart with yours,
Intertwined together.
– “To My Love”
– Jacqueline Ann Lente
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We grow,
We die,
We grow again.
Through life,
And its garden
Of pain
And beauty.
Fleeting moments,
Changing seasons.
We grow,
We die,
We grow again.
– “Grow, die, Grow again”
– Jacqueline Ann Lente
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As the sun sets over the mountains and darkness becomes night,
Our souls reset for another day.
Our hearts settle.
Our minds may race processing the day that is done.
Our body lays to rest.
As the sun sets over the mountains and darkness becomes night,
We become one with our true self.
– “We Become One”
– Jacqueline Ann Lente
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It may be a struggle to get up, but you can overcome. Wake up, let the hot water of the shower warm your bones. Take a moment of peace, breathe. Be proud of yourself. Have faith in yourself. Live to tell another day, live to make another memory, one you may cherish forever or one you can say that you survived from and made it though ❣
– “Live To Tell Another Day”
– Jacqueline Ann Lente
There will always be stormy seas, ups and downs.
There will always be darkness within the light, forever intertwined.
Just as a thunderstorm commands power but brings beauty, clarity and calm before and after; we humans experience the same in our emotional, mental and physical self.
The storm and the struggle may be rough, but it carries us through the lessons we must learn.
And the light is always there to guide us and show us beauty and wisdom in everything we do.
– “Stormy Seas”
– Jacqueline Ann Lente
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Our journey awaits over the horizon and into the sunset.
Through the waves and the storms we must face.
During the battles and the darkness, we can find peace in the hidden rays of the light of the sun shining over, watching over us.
Guiding us to freedom and love.
The journey of adventure and experience, growth and wisdom; the journey of our divine soul awaits over the horizon and into the sunset.
– “Over The Horizon, Into The Sunset”
– Jacqueline Ann Lente
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Sometimes life is black and white.
Other times life is full of colour.
It is what it is
And we take it as it comes.
Hazy and delusional,
Or clear as day.
Clarity from the demons,
And time to love and play.
Black and white,
Full of colours,
Life is both day and night.
– “Black and White, Full of Colour”
– Jacqueline Ann Lente
The mind is a paradox of both dark and light moments and thoughts.
Without the dark we cannot see the light.
Without the light we cannot learn from the darkness.
Both intertwined in perfect balance,
For our exploration of our inner soul and divine soul journey.
– “Paradoxical Mind”
– Jacqueline Ann Lente
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