My mind is at war.
My heart wants peace.
One moment I am falling,
Then floating the next,
And falling again.
On repeat.
The demons creep around.
Seeping into my bones.
They have become my bestfriends
When I am alone.
Serenity is a dream far away from here.
Reality is a prison.
Constantly trying to escape,
But never fully reaching the exit gates.
– Jacqueline Ann Lente
This bridge is the hardest to cross. The river of pain flowing underneath is overtaking, all consuming.
Taken out to sea. Now it is just me and the crashing waves. I’m screaming storms and shouting thunder,
All the while adrift in the rift of oblivion.
But sometimes you have to hold your own hand and sail through the breakdowns.
As the storms break and the sea calms,
I see the stars bright reflection bouncing off the water,
I hear the sweet lullabies of the world laced into the night sky.
And I know I have to ride the waves and weather the storms to make the journey back to shore.
– Jacqueline Ann Lente
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I cry watercolour skies,
You can see the tracks of my tears.
I’m too dead inside.
Indigo hues deepen as daylight wanes,
And I realise,
I don’t live here anymore, inside my head.
All I can think of is,
Hope is a slow poison,
And temporary ecstasy,
is enchanting,
Against the fatal embrace of time.
– “Indigo hues, watercolour skies” – Jacqueline Ann Lente
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Seek the wonder in life,
And never stop.
Seek the showers of gold,
And the shimmers of sweet light.
The good things,
The mysterious things,
The wonderful things.
Never stop seeking what makes you smile.
Allow yourself to get lost in the magic.
Seek the balm for the soul.
I hate it in my own head.
My own worst enemy.
Wishing I was dead.
The demons get too loud.
The cloud of illusion rolls in quick.
I can’t get myself to calm down,
And realise,
Its all in my head.
Sorrow holds its grip tight.
And I try and try with all my might,
To overcome, to push through.
But sometimes reasons are gone with the wind.
The grip is too suffocating,
And the screams of pain too loud.
I am my own enemy.
But at the same time,
I am my own saviour.
The battles are just ongoing.
The end of the war is no where in sight.
Day to day,
Night to night.
Forever in flight or fight.
– “Forever in Flight or Fight
– Jacqueline Ann Lente
All the days and nights
Fade away.
Fade into each other,
Into a haze.
All the thoughts and feelings,
All the pain.
A whirlpool of emotion,
Sucking me in.
Stuck in the void again
– “Stuck In The Void”
– Jacqueline Ann Lente
Is it better to feel numb?
Even just for a little while.
To turn off from the sadness, you’ll know you will have to face again and again
Or is feeling numb a sign that the sadness has become too much? and you have become used to feeling like this,
Used to all the bullshit and the trauma, that feels never-ending.
And being numb is a coping response to try and feel some peace,
even if its short lived, even if its for one moment.
One little sliver of peace amongst the chaos.
One moment of floating instead of falling into the void of darkness that is my mind.
– “Is it Better to Feel Numb?”
– Jacqueline Ann Lente
All I want is to hold you.
All I want is for you to stay mine.
All I want is for you to stay forever,
In this heart of mine.
– “All I Want”
– Jacqueline Ann Lente
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Hold me close my dear.
Hold me near and near.
Never let go.
Your warmth and light,
Keep me safe always.
May love be with us forevermore.
And may love and peace,
Be all the happy moments we share.
I am with you always,
Heart and soul.
Through stormy seas and sunshine,
And all the inbetween.
You have my being to the core,
You hold my heart with yours,
Intertwined together.
– “To My Love”
– Jacqueline Ann Lente
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We grow,
We die,
We grow again.
Through life,
And its garden
Of pain
And beauty.
Fleeting moments,
Changing seasons.
We grow,
We die,
We grow again.
– “Grow, die, Grow again”
– Jacqueline Ann Lente
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As the sun sets over the mountains and darkness becomes night,
Our souls reset for another day.
Our hearts settle.
Our minds may race processing the day that is done.
Our body lays to rest.
As the sun sets over the mountains and darkness becomes night,
We become one with our true self.
– “We Become One”
– Jacqueline Ann Lente
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We dwell on fear and let it consume us. We let fear overwhelm us with its tight grasp, pulling us further down into the destruction of the self. We are clouded by the worst possible consequence that we do not see opportunities right in front of us. We fail to take hold of them, and we let them pass by. A placebo effect of fear can sometimes stop us in our tracks.
Most of our fears are unnecessary and have unnecessary control over us. We must break the chains that bound us. We fear what ifs and everything falling apart. However, we will never know the outcome if we do not take the chance to take the risk. Sometimes aspects of our lives falling apart is a blessing in disguise as it paves the way for bigger and better things to come in the future. There is a reason for every moment even if it takes times to make sense of.
We should not let fear hold us back from exploring our greatest adventures and moments. Do not let fear define you. Fear should not dictate your life.
Take that leap, make that move and run full ahead into your goals and dreams.
– “Unnecessary Fear”
– Jacqueline Ann Lente
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It may be a struggle to get up, but you can overcome. Wake up, let the hot water of the shower warm your bones. Take a moment of peace, breathe. Be proud of yourself. Have faith in yourself. Live to tell another day, live to make another memory, one you may cherish forever or one you can say that you survived from and made it though ❣
– “Live To Tell Another Day”
– Jacqueline Ann Lente
Beautiful mind.
Beautiful soul.
You show me magic wherever you go.
Your light has me mesmerized.
Dancing off into the night,
With you by my side.
– “Magic In My Eyes”
– Jacqueline Ann Lente
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