We learn from love.
We learn that if we hold on too long we get burned. But if we let go we ache with such fierceful pain for once was and for what still is. And if we sit still and listen we can hear the cries, laughter, passions, longings, wishes, dreams and journeys of the world that bleed in joy and sorrow. And most importantly we hear our own pain and joy, our own understanding of love and the journey it has taken us on. The wounds, the depth, the lessons and the happiness that has filled our life that we swallowed endlessly because love and happiness are the ultimate drugs. We run and hide in fear of harm yet we lose the love all around us. Look around and feel it touch you with light and warmth, from loved ones, friends and your beloved. Love yourself and be free.
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Learning from Love
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Graduation
On Thursday 14th April I graduated from Western Sydney University with a Bachelor of Arts Degree, majoring in English. I also sub-majored in History and Political Thought and chose a wide range of ethics and philosophy subjects for my electives.
My course was full time for three years. And what a crazy whirlwind those three years were. I learned a lot, studied like crazy, worked overtime to meet due dates, discovered new and interesting topics to learn, met some fun and interesting teachers and students and became a part of what everyone at university calls “the student life”. Meaning I got to experience crazy packed and often late public transport, drinking litres of coffee, spending all my spare time marathoning movies and TV shows, cramming in my social life and working, reading mountains of books and many many essays and being sleep deprived every minute of it. All for the dream of aspiring writer and taking a chance on learning new things and using my creative and intellectual talent on a challenging and rewarding path of discovery.
Halfway through I didn’t know what I wanted to do. I was doubting myself. My personal life was becoming a mess. But I knew I couldn’t quit, because I had one year left and two, my mum would’ve been devastated, I would’ve failed myself. My ex at the time boyfriend told me the reason why he never took me out anymore or invited me to places with others was because the people he hung out with had ambitions and goals and knew where they were going in life and that I did not. Silly me let blind love manipulate me into thinking so too. I had lost my sense of self, was too Dependant on first love and too afraid to let anything go. I found out months after we broke up that this was just another one of his petty manipulating lies to cover up the fact that he was going out and cheating on me, wanting the best of both worlds. Lucky for me but unlucky for him I saw karma get him back big time, he self-destructed and knew of his mistake. One that he would have to live with forever.
Reflecting on this moment upon graduating I realized how proud I was of myself that I had made it despite my own fears and despite negativity. I am the one that graduated, where as he gave up his dream of music after dropping out of university after a month for drugs, sales and the life of a narcissistic party-goer. It is karma at its finest.
I made it. I gave everything and I made it through. All the tears, lack of sleep, frustration, stress and studying was worth it. I am ready for the next chapter of my life and I have learned that you are always higher and above negativity. Strive for your dream and give it everything you have got. Take that negativity and stick it to them, with your talent and creativity. Reward yourself with positivity and strength and know you can do anything you put your mind to no matter what!
I thank my friends and family who stayed and stuck it through with me. Supported me and gave me fun times to escape when I needed. Worked around my schedule and took relief of my stress and frustration and most importantly, expressed that they cared and believed in me that I could achieve my goals. If means so much to me.
Graduating, turning 21 soon, writing whenever I can, living in the moment, exploring new love and life, the next chapter of my life has only just begun.
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Let Go
Let go, let go of it all. Release the pain, let it run, let it bleed willingly until it hurts no more. Let what no longer serves you die away, say goodbye and leave the ashes to fade off into the wind. You are free. You are strong. You are powerful.
“Whatever comes, let it come. What stays, let it stay. What goes, let it go” – Unknown
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BEDAZZLED LIPS ๐
Today I got my lip peirced by my lovely piercer, Michelle, at work. It’s something I never thought I would do but it’s so elegant and beautiful. I love it. Especially the red jewel to match my hair. The best early birthday present I have ever received. The girls at work spoil me. Bless them ๐๐โ๏ธ
Jackie โ๏ธ๐๐
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SQUADย
My main homies โ๏ธ
– Birthday celebrations & Scary Canary, Sydney
– Sat 25.04.15 & Sat 2.05.15
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Friendshipย
Friends are the most important people to have in your life. And I’m not talking about who has the most friends or highest rate on Facebook, I’m talking about genuine, kind, loving and caring friends. The people who are always there no matter what, that never judge you, that guide you through happiness and through all your struggles. The ones that are there to catch you when you mess up and pull you back to sanity. And mostly the ones that save you, from terrible situations or judgement, from a deep struggle, or sometimes from yourself. Their hearts are filled with pure gold and their strength beams. They are so fiercely protective over you and love you so much they’d die for you. And to know that you would do the exact same things for them, that’s what you are in their eyes. That’s how legendary friendships are formed, stronger than any other bond.
I admit I was scared, being a loner at times, that as I grew up I’d have no friends. But through everything my friends have been there or Iv discovered precious gems along the way through the rough times that I love and cherish and all my friends I have now I am ever so thankful everyday for them.
Help each other, love each other, let your friends know that you’re always there for them and be kind!
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Jackie
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What is Happiness?ย
WHAT IS HAPPINESS?
I sit and ask myself truly what is happiness? Society would class me as someone who is always happy or always meant to be but the crushing reality is that a lot of the time it’s a persona I put on to distract myself from feeling sad. Happiness is portrayed as simple and easy like it’s starring us right in the face. However, unfortunately it is much simpler and easier to be sad and bathe in negativity.
Happiness is a journey, fleeting, in the moment, bursting and leaving sometimes in an instant. You will never just arrive at destination happiness, it’s more like a mini vacation destination. And hey you’re back to reality. That is why it is a transformation. When you realise happiness is in the moment you truly live in and take in, transforming the way you see the world when it’s bathed in sunlight and positivity. Although ironically striving and chasing happiness brings more unhappiness because you know it’s fleeting so you begin to think of the sadness of your issues, daily life, worries all waiting for you when it’s over. You lose the moment in a cloudy haze of disappointment. It’s a bittersweet concept, that feeling good is harder to achieve than feeling down.
Love on the other hand can make happiness explode. When in love even the smallest thing can make you so happy. Their smile, laugh, unique gestures and sayings, a text, call and their very presence invites happiness to subdue you, intoxicate you and to keep you addicted. Forget drugs and alcohol, happiness when you’re in love triumphs all.
But as everything always does, love has a dark side. It looms over heavily and it even feels like the light of the moon can’t save you from the darkness. Love leaving is the ultimate cancer for happiness. Happiness seems like a mirage on the horizon, so close yet so untouchable and so far away from reality. It causes failure to see happiness in anything but only the one that has hurt you. A viscous cycle as you remember they have hurt you and are the cause of your broken heart. Yes it does get better but you’re never exactly the same on the happiness plain after heartache. It either leaves a nasty scar on your heart that you despise or a scar that you look at in remembrance, a little longing, courage and love and a past so sweet it never truly leaves you.
Happiness in all it’s forms and concepts, moments and expression is glorious. It is finding your balance within happiness and it’s transforming journey that is key. Go with the flow, learn, flourish and strengthen your inner peace and you will find your way with happiness.
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Jackie
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Puppy love ๐
This puppy is so loved and adored. She has a beautiful soul and a bright personality already at five weeks old. You can just tell by looking into her eyes when she plays with you. She has a bright family future and is blessed with kindness and compassion by those who surround her. She has brought smiles and happiness into the world, making everyone’s day. It’s amazing how we can connect with animals on a tender and loving relationship. We are their whole lives and they will always be apart of ours. This puppy has a great destiny and bless her cute little soul forever more. Jackie
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My relationship with my hairย
I like to change my hair colour often and I always go for bright crazy colours. I feel I am not myself without it. I like to express my creativity through my hair and because of my job I get to experiment a lot. I recently decided to cut my hair even though I have been trying to grow it for years. It’s time for a change and the best way to do that is to start with your look. Spice it up, hair grows back so don’t be scared. I feel better, lighter and a bit more like myself again. It wasn’t actually supposed to go yellow but my hair has a mind of it’s own when it comes to how the colour turns out. I don’t mind it though. I have been all the colours of the rainbow. Coloured hair is one of my most favourite things! On myself, on others and creating colourful hair at work. It’s a part of you so show it off and make yourself look great! Peace out โ๏ธ
Jackie
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Welcome to my world
Hi, well I have never gotten into the world of blogging yet so stay with me as a figure it out. But I created this blog to express my writing and to let everybody into the mind of Jacqueline Ann Lente or Jackie for short. I’m pretty interesting, I promise. I currently study at University of Western Sydney doing a Bachelor of Arts degree, majoring in English. I write to express my feelings, inner thoughts and to express my creativity. I am also really inspired by reading books, poems, quotes and other people’s expressions and opinions of the world. I dream big and hope to explore the world. I like to think of myself as a care free spirit, a curious Gemini and I like to treat life like a crazy adventure.
I hope you enjoy the ride
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