
WHAT IS HAPPINESS?
I sit and ask myself truly what is happiness? Society would class me as someone who is always happy or always meant to be but the crushing reality is that a lot of the time it’s a persona I put on to distract myself from feeling sad. Happiness is portrayed as simple and easy like it’s starring us right in the face. However, unfortunately it is much simpler and easier to be sad and bathe in negativity.
Happiness is a journey, fleeting, in the moment, bursting and leaving sometimes in an instant. You will never just arrive at destination happiness, it’s more like a mini vacation destination. And hey you’re back to reality. That is why it is a transformation. When you realise happiness is in the moment you truly live in and take in, transforming the way you see the world when it’s bathed in sunlight and positivity. Although ironically striving and chasing happiness brings more unhappiness because you know it’s fleeting so you begin to think of the sadness of your issues, daily life, worries all waiting for you when it’s over. You lose the moment in a cloudy haze of disappointment. It’s a bittersweet concept, that feeling good is harder to achieve than feeling down.
Love on the other hand can make happiness explode. When in love even the smallest thing can make you so happy. Their smile, laugh, unique gestures and sayings, a text, call and their very presence invites happiness to subdue you, intoxicate you and to keep you addicted. Forget drugs and alcohol, happiness when you’re in love triumphs all.
But as everything always does, love has a dark side. It looms over heavily and it even feels like the light of the moon can’t save you from the darkness. Love leaving is the ultimate cancer for happiness. Happiness seems like a mirage on the horizon, so close yet so untouchable and so far away from reality. It causes failure to see happiness in anything but only the one that has hurt you. A viscous cycle as you remember they have hurt you and are the cause of your broken heart. Yes it does get better but you’re never exactly the same on the happiness plain after heartache. It either leaves a nasty scar on your heart that you despise or a scar that you look at in remembrance, a little longing, courage and love and a past so sweet it never truly leaves you.
Happiness in all it’s forms and concepts, moments and expression is glorious. It is finding your balance within happiness and it’s transforming journey that is key. Go with the flow, learn, flourish and strengthen your inner peace and you will find your way with happiness.
✌️💕
Jackie
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